Monday, December 19, 2011

So Very Blessed...

Yesterday was Westyn's Baptism, and it was beautiful in every way. It was a little emotional at times, but it was truly perfect. It started out by snowing on our way to church, and it made me think of Aubree of course. I almost felt like the snow was her way of saying that we had her blessing and that she was there with us. Our church started something new for baptisms so we had to write a letter to Westyn that we read in front of the church. Our letter was hard to write, but I feel like we said everything we needed to say to him in the one minute time frame that we had. We had so many family and friends there with us to celebrate his beautiful life. This is the letter we wrote to him:

"Rainbow Baby" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

Westyn, you are truly a rainbow in every sense, and we are very thankful that you are a part of our family. You have provided us with so much joy and emotional healing, and we look forward to watching you grow up into a man. You were an answer to so many prayers, and our lives feel very full now that you are here. We have so many hopes and dreams for you, but our biggest hope is that with God’s help we are able to nurture you and teach you in a loving environment so that you may make the decision to ask Jesus to come into your life some day. We commit to raising you in the church and to leading you by example so that you may know the peace, love, and joy that God will provide for you. God has been such an important part of our lives, and we hope that you will make Him an important part of yours as well so that all six of us may spend an eternity together in Heaven. We love you more then you will ever know, and we truly feel that God has blessed us with your presence in our family.

I would have loved to say more, but there is only so much time to express how I feel about him being in our family. The best part of yesterday was that our Pastor had asked us once we got to church if he could talk about Aubree. We were not prepared for that, but I was very honored that he wanted to talk about her since he is one of the few who held her. She changed him in many ways because she showed him that even in death (never having lived at all except in utero) she was still a child that needed to be remembered and honored. It was because of her that he honored another woman's twins who died at birth in her obituary. We spoke about being a family of six, and he commented about how standing in front of the congregation was only a family of five..he went on to tell a little bit of our story and about how we are examples of how you can find hope in all of life's situations. She was honored yesterday, and I felt so proud...I am not sure there was a dry eye in the congregation, but my church family got to hear about her on the day that her little brother was baptized. It was also amazing because we had many people there for his baptism who maybe were touched by Aubree too...It was such a perfect day...


  1. that was such a beautiful letter and such a wonderful touching thing your pastor did. Love all the pics you guys look great. Much love

  2. How touching...I love every little bit of it. God is shinning down on you this season.

  3. What a beautiful letter to a precious renewal of hope! I am so, so glad that you got to share Aubree on such a special day. To me it seemed to make her a very special part of the day! Merry Christmas to you sweet mama!

  4. I love this so very much!!! You are such an amazing person. I know that your sweet Aubree was looking down on all of you and she was so proud. By the way you have a beautiful family <3

  5. Aww, I'm so glad! What a sweet way to honor Aubree while rejoicing in Westyn.