What a Rough Morning..

I went to the viewing and service for my friend's daughter this morning, and it was really rough. I hate seeing such a small casket with such a perfect little girl who didn't even have a chance to live..Most of her life was spent fighting leukemia but from what they say she was a happy girl regardless. Hearing her father speak about her about broke my heart. The tears that haven't flowed for quite some time just wouldn't stop because I know where he is at and how difficult the next year is going to be. I told him to just keep on getting out of bed each morning..Sounds like dumb advice, but it kept me going even when I didn't want to get out of bed. I had to just keep putting one foot forward in order to keep on moving forwards emotionally..It was not an easy task, but I hope he is able to do it. The other big factor is having faith..you just can't survive something like this if you don't believe you will see your child again. To see them the last time would be way too final I think..I at least know that she is waiting for me, and I WILL see her again! It is so sad what my friend has gone through, but he is being so tough. I let him know that I am here if he needs me for anything at all. I am just worried about him because he has a lot on his plate right now without having a job, fighting for custody of his son, and just learning to live without Lily is going to be tough. Please pray for him and for his family as they begin this extremely difficult journey.

Just hearing all of the poems, the songs, and being around the sadness just brought back all of those memories of Aubree's service..I am so glad my mom was there to support me through it. She has known Clark and his mother for a really long time too so I think it was good for her to be there to support them as well. I am emotionally drained, and my heart just feels so heavy right now. I wish I could take away the pain that he is feeling right now, but the only person capable of doing that is our true Father. What a sad day for this family...May God grant them peace and allow them to rejoice for Lily and the fact that she is leukemia free and finally at peace..