Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Perspective

I need to vent a little bit for the moment...I am so sick and tired of everyone complaining about how awful the snow is..I understand it isn't fun to shovel, and I understand it isn't easy to always drive around in it, but seriously? How can you not look at the snow and find peace? There is nothing better than walking out in the snow especially at night after it has just fallen. There might not be any sounds at all, but there is definitely a sound that is associated with freshly fallen snow..It brings such a sense of peace in me, and sometimes I wonder if God is really trying to give me some extra peace these days with all of the snow he is blessing us with...Yeah, I know I am a skier, and I appreciate the snow because of that, but I also just appreciate it for all of it's beautiful qualities...Think about how beautiful the trees look when they are covered and the houses...it is almost like God sending his love down to us to blanket us in beauty...he is showing us a glimpse of what Heaven will be like..perfect and beautiful..Remember..no two snowflakes are alike..if that doesn't show God's power and beauty then you have truly missed something...If snow is the worst thing in your life right now maybe you should put your life into perspective...I wish we could all just have that "problem." Ok..enough about the snow..

I got my official results of my amnio today...She (yes there were definitely two x's) has Full Trisomy 18 which is what they found in the Fish test. I know this might sound strange to some of you, but I am so relieved. I am so glad that they found an 18 in every cell because that means my other children are ok..I would hate for them to have to go through any kind of testing or even have to experience this as a result of us passing an extra 18 on to them..Aubree just got really unlucky in how her cells divided. I guess you can look at it either way though..we are really lucky to have her be a part of our life because she has taught us so much about life and how we need to be putting things into perspective. I can't say I was good at putting things into perspective before Aubree, but I have really learned how important that is from her. I have also really learned about material things and how they mean nothing in the grand scheme of things...I would give up my granite countertops that I so desperately had to have in order to get a few moments with her..Life is so much more than things..we can't take any of it with us when we die, but we can take all of the love and memories we have had with others..

My mom found a beautiful song that I think we might just use at Aubree's memorial service because it is so perfect for her. It is called "Visitor From Heaven" by Twila Paris. I am attaching the lyrics because it is so fitting for my little angel..

A visitor from Heaven
If only for a while
A gift of love to be returned
We think of you and smile

A visitor from Heaven
Accompanied by grace
Reminding of a better love
And of a better place

With aching hearts and empty arms
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we’re so glad you came
We’re so glad you came

A visitor from Heaven
If only for a day
We thank Him for the time He gave
And now it’s time to say
We trust you to the Father’s love
And to His tender care
Held in the everlasting arms
And we’re so glad you’re there
We’re so glad you’re there

With breaking hearts and open hands
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we’re so glad you came
We’re so glad you came

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